Welcome, my name is Annette.
I love the letter “F” and it resonates with me! I also feel like I am a paradox!
The F Word Paradox
Finally, I have launched , this has been a “blog” that I have been thinking about and creating for a long time perhaps my lifetime. Why now? simply put I “woke” up figuratively speaking since I really do not sleep that well anymore, and I did an inventory of my life. Certain things are fabulous but others things are missing or have been neglected and I want to change that.
Therefore, I decided to write about it and share….why is that important? Well for me it’s a journey , a chance to reflect, explore, learn and change. I feel like a paradox…I ‘m living a life that many younger women with 5 year olds live but I’m not 20 , 30, or 40 I am in my fifties … I’ve had a marital realignment and am on a “do-over “ I have changed, my body is changing and life from my perspective can be fun yet frustrating, freeing yet final. …I am fearful yet fascinated with this journey.
Welcome to the “F” word Paradox
Fifty
It finally happened! Where did time go? Where did my life go? Where did I go?
This did not happen for me at 50 , it was 52. Some would say a slow learner but I like to view it as an observation period. For most of my life I have been involved in fashion. I started working retail at the age of 15 for a women’s clothing store chain. I loved it and was recognized as a top seller yet for me it was not the sales as much as helping the clientele achieve the look they wanted to project that was important. When you feel good your confidence increases and goals feel much more attainable. I felt that the fashion cycle was a parallel to my life. You begin with the introduction phase move to the rise and acceptance phase then you peak , afterwards there is the decline and potentially rejection or what I like to call it the “revamp” because fashion is cyclical….and so can aspects of our lives. What is old is new again.
Pregnant pause. At 47 I gave birth to my third child ( My older children are from a previous relationship) I am so thankful to be in the this relationship with as corny as it sounds, the love of my life. I love being his partner and a mom yet its different, I’m different now. The first few years are challenging with small children, blending family units and new relationships combine that with getting older and sometimes you question yourself…hence the paradox. When this pause dissipated into being more manageable I wondered where did it go? The time, my energy, myself…ahhh the changes. I want to feel fabulous, I want to be fashionable, I want to be healthy and to be fit , I want to live life not be complacent which would be such an easy path to follow. I want to learn from my mistakes but also learn new things. Easier said then done has new meaning. The wisdom at 50 is freeing and I want to look at things as the glass is half full.
So fifty is fine and it has potential to even being fabulous!
